When I finially got clean it was not as scarey as I thought it was going to be. I didnt really know who I was clean I started smoking weed and taking crosstops {speed} when I was like 9 or 10 years old. I was still just a baby. When I used I felt like I was alive for the first time in my life. Its funny the memories I have are very sad ones. My sisters and I, I had two. We were in four house fires and one even blew up a gas leak? I thought it was normal I went to every grade school there was in the town where I grew up. You see my Mom was married eight times not including her affairs and shack ups. I was a very sad and confused little girl. But I wouldnt change it, because it made me who I am today. And looking back I beleave God was protecting me my whole life. I didnt feel normal sober or straight at all I cryed everyday praying for God to deliver me from a very bad Herion addiction and I do mean a bad addiction for almost twenty years. Right when I was losing all hope of being free from Herion it happend. God deliverd me Praise Our Mighty God. I have now over eight years free from it eight years on October 3 2025. I can say I am done. If God could deliver me from that he can do anything. trust me. I couldnt imagine going a day without that black posion, now I cant ever imagine using it ever again all Praise to God.+
